I should get everything back tuh normal . eventhough its hard tuh let you go deep inside . But im forcing myself too forget about it . I seriously do not know if this is me . But , im doing this cause of you . I appreciate much if this was the right thing that your doing . But , its not mine . Im still hurt . But there no point of saying as its over . May the Pass flows away and a new life ahead . Get things back tuh normal , and im sure i can make it .

I may not be smiling as before . I may not be showing my life into Kumpulan anymore . But no worries , i'll be fine . Im still into my passion of Dancing . But i may not be concentrating in outside Kumpulan . Knowing my mistake right now , of not having a realtionship in the same Kumpulan .

Im not ready tuh have a realationship right now , enjoy my single life first . And i'll make sure it gonnabe enjoyful . What im doing now , no one can stop . And i can be whoever i wann . Being single theres Life . Which is what Yayan said tuh me , its true . Having A realationship , there No Life . And i bet its totaly true . You can contact whoever you wan , be whoever you want . As long as you wont disturbe people life .

Thank to Mama and Father for the Support . I love you . And still deep inside im hurt . Eventhough i went this thick nd thin , im still moving on my life . Its just the hurt , hopefull its cure as soon as possible .

And , to my little sis , Shahidah . How you hate her , its what your brother want it . Just dont think it too hard . Im sure he know whats best for hym . And eu know that hys a lovely brother . But , it doesnt matter anything , just yourself . Dont get influence by other aytes sis . Your impression of your self , and your body language shows everything of you . Show hym your respect , and im sure he respect you . You may fight for your right but do think about other too aytes darling . No matter what you have my support darling . I love you till the end .

And it all over , you cant turn back the clock . And start everything new . Its the fact that you hve to xcept . I may have difficulties , but having a right mindset , it will helps . People may think that im easly moving on . but deep inside im not . I was not s strong ghurl before . I was not as strong as others . But now , i have learn . There no pont of crying . And you have loads of years upcoming . I bet that i can have a bright future . And having a right path way , its the matter you can make it anot .

And i bet some of my friends are also sad tuh hear what i am now . I know you all wanted tuh see me happy and have a good realtionship . and Hoping htat i wont get hurt again . i apologised much , and thankyou for all you advice . Im still continue ~ ing mylife . Its really a tear of joy if you could read all my past post . With my ex's . its really a love with never ending story . Well , life move on .

And im sure , one day theres a guy who really prove me that hys not lyke others . And he gonna show me what really a true love means . Hopefully one day with a bless from god and mum . Insyaallah dan AMIN !

For those who saw my cell phone contact list , under "guyfriends" . Yesh im contacting 2 of it . And really its a pleasure knowing them . And i sould tell you guys earlier that im only concentrating on my N levels and wont be having a realtionship . May god willing too .

Mama told me that she will find me jodoh , i think let her find me a good and adorable guy thats suit for me . And she have on in her mind , which is , i dont know who . But seen hym before . The day i Know Zul , and thats the day i know that guy too . Hopefully hys a good guy .

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