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Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Dear Diary ,

People are so mean now a days . I wouldnt say who but , i may not be in that place , i may not be a member anymore . But , the thing that im now surprised , even an invitation was not given to me . I realise who am i to them . But , i suppossed they shoudl inform me or something , Ohmy ! Sad and dissappointed .

Im out with Sayang tomorrow . Enjoying the fun and sharing the romance together . I did met up hys parent last Sunday . Its pleasure Sayang bought me there . Got to talk to Baba alot . I'll see you on 17th . And i'll make sure it will be happening . Cause , there's something in mind . Sayang was happy , but then ? im not . I still have hearts and respect to the one who gave me the power and strength . Did ask permission , still thinking about it . Whatever your decision is i respect it .

Celebrating the Eve , wasnt thatenjoyable enough , but hopedully this 2nd & 3rd will be a great one . Hoping laughter on the 2nd with Classmate and Having romace on 3rd .

Sayang will back to National Service starting tomorrow . So , i'll be sleeping at home while hys at Camp . I'm sorry Sayang , but i still be companying you next week . I been skiping school for lyke a few days . Plus This whole week . Its not im weak to go to school . But , coming school without any Studies going on i as well , sit at home and sleep . And attend school next Monday , just to take exams . And after exams , continueing sleeping .

I had plans after exams . I apologised to Sayang earlier if i dont have tyme for hym . I'll be working Mid of this month or Earlier next month , Will be assisting mum with her work at , Mount Ellizebeth . Js right behind Orchard Paragon . Monday to Friday , working hour . And Saturday , Half day . I'll be at the Receiptionist . And what i'll be doing will be , answering calls and assist mum . Simple but yet , its all about Nursing . Didnt learn much about Science in school . I remembered taking Sciende went i was Secondary 1 & 2 . And after that , i get my hands on , taking Design & Technology . And i have little memory space in my mind . So , i'll be facing problem countered while working . Hopefully mum bared with me .

Excited ? Jyearh ! With some upcoming event . ont the 2th , 3rd , 13th , 17th , its my special day so , hopefully it will came out in a different way . Im hoping the best from Sayang . The most im waithing for in 17th . Overjoyed i think . Im loving that day ! Farrel Park ?

Surprises ? Woah ! I bet people like it . Come down on 17th . Thank to Sayang for the invitation . Im glad at least there;s is someone who know how to invite me . eventougth im nothing to them . But still they treat me as one . I will never let you down Sayang . For you and them , i will do anything to get back everything. As whay malay say , Hidup Mesti Degil . Am i right ?

Proud to have a Boyfriend with Tattoes , drink , smoke , wrong compang ? Nope ! Totally im not proud at all . So what he have that all this but only Rubbish he gave to a ghurl ? Its better having all that , and loving a ghurl with sincerly . And for your information , Sayang treats me better then last tyme . Which is triple much better then last tyme . And hoping Sayang wont let me down . Hopefully . I dont care at all woth what he is now , what i cared is , he love and hys honesty , that he gave .

My experience ? Having Sayang for 3 an a Half months was totaly Complicating . Its worth of waiting . And patients . Either you can do it a not . As , one particular day you will realised that he come to you , begged for you love and asked for the lst chance given . And your heart was open to gave hym the last chances . Sayang show me that he change . But not fully change , im still standing straight looking how long can this happen .

Afraid ? Yupp , im afraid of loosing hym and afraid he might did the same . Who know , one day . Im not looking forward to it . But hopefully it wont happen . Im happy with hym now . And hopefully it wont end js like that .

Sayang , i love you no matter what .

Love,

Yayacinta

Labels: That Tattoo Guy

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Its so hard for me to believe of giving hym another chance . All this while , he had been hiding somewhere in this country . I just dont know weather this is my right decision . Hard to believe hym now , cause i gave hym loads of chances . If you seen this blogg, previous post . There's aload of stories about hym . The way i love , care , cuddle , everything about hym , is all stated .

I did meet hym last 2 days . & spending a day with . With hym by hys side , one thing that i feel , A F R A I D of getting the 3rd time . I wonder why he come back suddenly . That day went i was walking home finding cab , i hugged hym . And say , " B , i takot . I takot you pempermainkan cinta i lagy . " And he replied , " Takk shyq . I takk akan . " I say , " How sure are you ? i takot you tinggalkan macam dulu . " he replied , " i janji i takk akan tinggalkan you . " And he kissed me at my forehead . And im went home .

There's still more . All hys text , msg , everything i keep in heart and mind .

He changed hys tagged . The same thing as what he did last tyme . But will it last long ? or will he repeate the same old thing ?

I seriously having a confusion in my mind now .

I wass so surprised , went i was getting ready , a called from Ijan ( hys brother ) ;

Ijan : Nie Yaya ?
Me : Yerr . Saper niek ?
Ijan : Nie kakak ipar ijan ?
Me : ( Terkejot ) Yerr . Asal ijan ?

Conversation goes ..

Kakak ipar ? Haish . To sadd to predict everything . How i wish he was lyke this last tyme .

Got to go ,

Love,

YayaCintaa <3>

Labels: Muhammad Adimin

Friday, September 25, 2009

Back with Ex Lover , Kecikesai ..

HIATUS for the tyme being !

I need tuh be alone .

Labels: He change to a better person

Monday, September 21, 2009

Dear Diary ,

Let me update for this year Hari Raya . Its all so DIFFERENT . There's no Happiness at all .

19th September 2009

I did aload of house cleaning . Change my bed layout . And throw aload of stuff . In this house im the only tall ghurl . So i helped mum with the Certains . Black end white thin strips . Its v v v v nice .

Boyyf text me he hys on the way . I was shit ! Havent bath yet . So quikly had a bath and i wear baju kurung with tights . Okkaeys , i didnt put own my make up pwder , wth eyebrow drawn . Then , Boyyf text me hys infrount on my list . I meet Boyyf . He prefer me with natural face . Which i sayy , "eeeeeew~" to hym . NoNo ! I look soplae without make up ouhkkaeys ? Help mama with buker . Arrange food . Its so sweet . Hearing azan , i bacer doa makan . Sweet banget ! We ate . Hearing radio , went they announce that the next day Raye . I was lyke Alhamdullilah . I am so Happy2 . Hearing takbir , it burst me into tears . I couldnt stop crying upon remembering my late grandmother . Plus , my dearest Brother . Who unable to celebrate with us as family . And this year we celebrate without a dad around . Its hys DEAD ! hys alive , but he got no brains to clebrate with uh .

Dear Abang Firdaus ,

Yaya ampun Maaf Zahir dan Batin . Kalaw yaya pernah menyakitkan hati abang or buat abg kecewe . Maafkan yaya yerr . Yaya naq abang bahagia . And yaya will be visiting you this coming Friday . Tunngu yaya ohkaeys ? I mish you , I love you , Mwuuuuaaahhk ! Abang i mish you sweet voices , and your Kisses !

Your Truely Sister ,
Yayaaaa ;D

Thanks to Boyyf who comfront me . I did ask forgiveness to Boyyf . Cause i really did aload of mistake to Boyyf .

Dear Boyyf ,

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Dan Batin . B , i tawuq i banyak saketkan hati you , i byk terluker kan hati you . I mohon maaf pat you . Walaupon , we byk gadoh - gadoh tappy tetap i shyq you bhyk2 . B , sempena bulan mulia ini , i harap we stay long kaeys b , I love you till elternity ! Only you , i have .

Love,
Yayaaaa ;D

We did play Bunga api , with Boyyf and siblings plus , lili brother friends . Well , i did enjoy . But poor thing Boyyf have to go geylang meet hys friends . So he left early . Erm , v well . I teman hym down , smokesmoke . Then went up . Watch Tv . at 2plus then i went bed .

20th September 2009

I woke up early at 8plus . Watch tv . And Bath . I was the first one who woke up early ! Haha ! Mum was surprised . So i ate aload in that morning . And i went my room , i make up . Cuase , my make up will takes 1 hour . So yearh , make up . make up . make up . Mum iron clothes . Then , worn the green baju . Nice ! We took photos .

Totally nice , but i didnt manage to seek forgiveness from mum . But , for her we did her best .

Dear Mama ,

Kakak ampun maaf zahir dan batin . Akak banyak susahkan mama . Banyak uat mama sedih . Maafkan akak ma . Dan akak tawuq , tahun ini berbeze , cause Papa taq der . Mama jangan sedih - sedih , cause kakak nan adeq - adeq will always be with you . Once again , kakak mintak maaf , Minal Aidil Walfaizin , Mohon maaf zahir dan Batin .

Love ,
Anak mu .
Yayaaaa ;D

Off to nenek house , i seriously dont like facing Mum side . But what to its Bulan mulia , so i have too face them . Took cab . Stop infrount of nenek house , 147 Yishun . And i saw baba House . argh ! I mish them aload ! So , went up , meet nenek . Nenek was surprise to see my mum lonnnnnng hair . and mine , so natural . Haha ! its fake ohkaeys ?

Eat , eat eat . Then Untie Linda , ask me to teman her . Smoksmoke . I really got an UNDERSTANDING untie ! Haha ! ;D So , talk , talk with her . Then talk tuh nenek about abang fir , saying that abang fir will be staying with us NEXT YEAR ! lyke hell year ! waiting for 14Oct2010 ! Soon ! Soon ! Soon ! Will meet hym v v v v SOON ! Nenek ask Mama : Betol Kaw nak jager Deir ? Mama : Aus dah janji nak jager orang . I was there . Its lyke , nenek afraid that Abg Aus will did hys old things back . Insyaallah , with the help of me , i wont let mama down . Abg aus will me taken care by me !

Till , 3plus , followed nenek go , Nyanyi house , than , atok side , nyanyi house also . Hapy , hapy . Went i reached at Atok side . Firstly i saw , Cik Mimi . I really lyke to see hym . And the onlything i ask hym is , " Mane Hidayat ? " . he say , hidayat went overseas . I was lyke , kenape hidayat tak bilang akurh ? Sad Sad Sad ! Then mum talk to Cik Mimi . She cried . I aready know about what . Then , suddenly , Cik Mimi , call me , so he talk about my father . I just agree whatever she say . And he did say about , Hidayat . He is actually inside . cause of rioting ! My breadth STOP ! ohmygod . i didnt know Hidayat was lyke that .

Fyi , hidayat once lyke me before . And its was 2years past . before he went NS , till he finish now .I miss you aload Yayat ! :'( So thats was my last house , i went back after that . To tired , cause og heels . Penat giler ! So went im back home , and rest . I ate . Then on laptop chat with Boyyf . told hym aload . about 1plus i went to sleep .

22nd September 2009

Today , i didnt went out . Cuase mum say , mum wont be going anywhere aready . So jyearh . I was at home . All the long . My throut and Nose was giving me problem . i ate adeq's medication . seriously , sleepy enough ! So , i went to sleep . Then nenek arrive . So did talk to nenek . About tyme nenek went home . So , yearh . So i went back to sleep . About 7 , i wake up and get wash up . So i was so fresh . Eat . then m now im blogging . Will be going school tomorrow . Cause some of my friends going . N level in 2 weeks tyme . So jyearh ! Preparing for it .

Boyyf will be online ~ ing later . So , hopefully i can chat with hym .

Alright , I got to go .

Love,

YayaCintaaaaaa ;D

Friday, September 18, 2009

Dear Diary ,

I thought it was end of my life . I was happily on the way home . I js bought my 7inch Guess at Metro with Mum . While on the way home , in the train . In sudden i was so restless . And i almost fainted . I told mum as she's sitting , i need to sit . She was just happily talking with hyer Boyyf . So i squad down . Then , she gave me the sit . I was relief . But , all my skn , mouth , face , turn so BLUE ! & thought that its was end , i keep mengucap inside my heart . Mum sat beside me , and gave me oil , so i did rub and rest at mum shoulder . So reach Admiralty , i seriously cant stand long , i felt lyke my legs do not have bones to support me . Sat at Macdonald waiting for Buker , gladly , after buker , hearing Azan , i was relief , and back tuh a normal person . Mum told both my siblings , i was shocked though , cause i , myself , didnt know i was so Blue ! I was blessed i could continue my life and celebrate Hari Raye . Insyaallah !

Didnt mange to tell boyyf . I had some quarrelwith Boyf js now.

Dearest boyyf ,

I dont wanna quarrrel with you . Its not being mature or not . To think mature , i can manage everything myself . I js want us to be happy . But then , i felt so damn hurt , i had enough of crying . And i olso want you to know , putting a name , its fair if we can do it a same . and please , mind your words . Its so hurt . Think twice before you speak everything , its reallly hurt for me . I understand you , but sometimes you dont understand me . I been very pateint now daeys . And please its not because of mature a not . aytes .

Love,

YayaCintaa

I'm helping mum with preparation of Hari Raya , hopefully tomorrown boyyf Buker with my family . As , its hys first tyme meeting my family . Hopefully jadd .

Till here ,

YayaCintaaaa ;D

Dear Diary ,

Goodafternoon Earthlings ,

Well , apologised much for not updating , as im busy preparing so many things , mostly Hari Raya coming , so did bought aload of things . Went geylang aload, aload, aload of tyme .. Tiring though . But , have fun . Didnt attend school for 3 daeys . Staring Wednesday till Today , Firday . Lazy to go . Heard from classmates , there's no studies . So i decided not to go .

I had my last Geylang outing with dearest boyyf , with hys members . Yearh , did enjoy aload !! ;D Totally . Photos will up loaded soon .

Currently im getting aready to go Mum work place , i wanna buy Heels ! Weee ~ ! So , yearh

Boyf having CSO as usually every Friday . And i cant text me , as hys highcard low . Boohoo ! ;(

Aytes , i got to go now . Photos uploaded !

Choose your Best Photos !

Monday, September 14, 2009

Number One .

Wheres your boyfriend?
* at home .

Name something you did yesterday?
* Tak Bangun Sahur

Last person you text messaged?
* Boyyf

What colour is your hair?
* I just dye dark brow cause of N Level . *shobshob*

What was the last thing you cried over?
* Boyyf cause' of small matter , besar-besar kan .

Whats something you really want right now, be honest?
* Boyyf i mish hym so much !

Is there anyone on your mind that shouldnt be?
* Currently not now .

Do you have a little sister?
* Yearps , Menyakitkan hati dohh .

Do you like to listen to the radio when you are in the car?
* Tune on !

Who were you with the last time you went to the movie theater and when?
* With exboyyf , watch 3D UP . Forget When

What are you listening to?
* Kucing Cemari

Do you sleep with a fan on?
* Lyke Durgh !

Do you get good morning texts from anyone?
* Nope , i js say im on the way to school .

Where is your cell phone?
* Beside me .

Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
* Yupp , i got N level .

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
* Yes , with Boyyf

Did you speak to your dad today?
* No & Never .

Will tomorrow be better than today?
* Insyaallah .

Do you want to see somebody right now?
* Boyyf Muhammad Fadli Bin Abu Bakar .

Your current relationship status?
* Peace , Love & Party !

Do you like it when you get kissed on the forehead?
* Yes totally .

Are you waiting for something?
* For Wednesday , going with Boyyf

Do you think the last person you kissed cares for you?
* Yearps , totally .

Do you text message a lot?
* Yes . But Boyyf ppd low , so sunyi .

When is the next time you'll kiss someone?
* I kiss mum everyday before going school !

What was the last thing you drank?
* Coke .

What would your name be with the first three letters?
* erm , Name penuh kurh , Nur Halimatuz Sa'adiah , First three letter ? - Nur ?

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
* Im 16 , 10 years ? 26 , i bet , im having 2 kids aready !

Did you have a good day?
* Erm , tired !

If you could move right now would you?
* Move house ? stay with Boyyf cann ?

Are you happy with the way things are going right now?
* erms , depends .

Do you like being in pictures?
* yearps .

Where will you be in an hour?
* My bed waiting for me .

Is your heart broken right now?
* Currently nope .

How old are your siblings?
* 22 , 14 , 12

Do you believe in love?
* Im in love anw .

Do you think relationships are even worth it?
* yearps .

Have you ever done anything outrageously dumb?
* Yupps .

Have you ever kissed anyone and never saw them again?
* Yupps .

Where EXACTLY were you when you entered 2009?
* I went Lau Pat Sat with my family & exboyf family .

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a D?
* Nope

Have you ever been back-stabbed by a friend?
* Yes .

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
* Mama , cause of KingKong .

Spring or summer?
* Winter

Do you wear make-up?
* Yes !

Confused about anything?
* Nope

Do you prefer to call or text someone?
* Depends

Do you have a secret that you arent telling anyone?
* could be .

Number Two .

1. How often do you think about him?
♥/ Every sec can ?

2. Do you like him a friend?
♥/ A friend ? I know hym as a friend .

3. How do you know him?
♥/ Moroe than you know .

4. Who is he to you?
♥/ Boyyf

5. Does he ever talk to you on his own will?
♥/ i begg your pardon ?

6. Do you think he likes you?
♥/ Kaww naq kaw tanyer laky akurh .

7. What does he talk about with you?
♥/ Anything .

8. What does he give you?
♥/ Love , Love , Love

9. Do you love him?
♥/ More than Love baybe

10. Does he love you?
♥/ Ask hymm larh .

11. Do you feel shy to talk to him?
♥/ Shy ? Selalu jerit2 pat telephone ader .

12. Do you know that he likes you?
♥/ the night i chatted with hym !

13. Are you a very good friends?
♥/ Good friends ? lyke ?

14. Do you feel that you should hide your weaknesses from him?
♥/ Hide ? Deir tawuqq dohh .

15. Do you think about him all the time?
♥/ Tadd darh tanyer knn ?

16. Do you feel to give a gift to his birthday even when you don't know how it will make him feel?
♥/ Tunggu next year , then i plan .

17. Do you really want him to know about your feelings?
♥/ Yesh totally .

18. Do you believe in love?
♥/ Im in love , totally .

19. What do you think /what are your feelings for him?
♥/ I wannt hym forever cann ?

20. Do you feel sad when he is not OK?
♥/ Yes .

21. Does your friends know you love him?
♥/ Yesh aload people know , but sometimes BLIND !

22. Do you stare at him a lot?
♥/ Stare ? Haha ! Naq rembat buleh ?

23. Do you get jealous when people talk to him?
♥/ Jealous ? Kuat tawuqq ! ADUI , setakat bbual nan kwn pon boleh world war 10 .

24. Did you tell him you love him?
♥/ Yes ! Alwaeys .

25. Do you call him?
♥/ Yes .

26. Do you text him?
♥/ Bru msg , tanyer biler naq online ?

27. Do you think about him everyday?
♥/ Almost every time .

28. Did you kiss him?
♥/ Selalu .

29. Do you write about him in your diary or journal?
♥/ Yes .

30. Do you try to make him jealous to love you?
♥/ Akurh taq kenek maki darh bagos .

31. Do you ask his friends if they like you or like someone?
♥/ Giler babi perh , darh bagos laky akurh taqq jerit nan akurh !

32. Do you love more than 1 guy?
♥/ I only love one guy , Muhammad Fadhli Bin Bapaknyer .

Number Three .

First off, what is your name?
- Yaya

Do you have a best friend that you can talk to 24/7?
- Nope , Boyyf is my bestfriend .

Do you have any siblings?
- Yesh . plus me , 4 siblings .

How many years apart is your mom and dad?
- Four , skrg darh taq ader paper lagy .

Do you like someone?
- Yesh ! Boyyf

Where is your dad right now?
- taqnaq ambek tawuq !

Do you burn incense?
- Yes .

Closest purple object?
- My BARNEY !

What is bugging you right now?
- Boyyf where is he ?

How does your hair look right now?
- Let go . Wind Blow .

Do you have any fears?
- i do .

What do you hear right now?
- Suria , dipinggiran Ramadhan .

Can you roll your tongue?
- YESH !! PREFECTLY !

What are you wearing?
- T shirts and Shorts .

Who was the last person to message you?
- Boyyf

Do you like emo kids?
- Nope .

Rock or Rap?
- Rap

Flying or Driving?
- Merangkak taqnaq ?

Was your Valentine's day nice?
- With Exboyyf ? Clebrating Anniversary & Valentine tuhgether , its sweets !

What are you doing now?
- Doing this quiz & watching tv

Would you die for someone?
- probably .

Do long distance relationships work?
- Yesh , give and take is much important .

When did you last talk to one of your siblings?
- tady .

What are you doing tomorrow?
- N Level , buy heels .

Do you worry about getting older?
- No .

Do you bite your nails?
- Nope .

Ever gone a whole day without eating?
- Yes . that tyme puase ! i didnt eat at all !

Do you own ripped jeans?
- No .

What would you do if you found out that you were adopted?
- Shocked ! tears .

Are you jealous a lot of the time?
- Yearh .

Do you use a calendar or day planner to schedule everything on?
- Yearh , till using it .

Who can make you laugh during the hardest time?
- Boyyf I LOVE YOU !

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Dear Diary ,

Oh Sarangheyo People ! Im lovely fine today night . Getting ready for school tomorrow , recaping the nect exam . It will be CPA practical on Tuesday morning . So , im actually ready for CPA practical . I did v v v v well for Prelims . So aiming for A* . Hofefully .

My dearest Boyfriend , Muhammad Fadhli , your deares ghurlfy misses you aload ! I see you soon sayang . Remember , Peace in Love , Make Love and Party , when comes the day . I love you !

Today , 13th September , exboyf , Adimin , called me early in the morning . Asking me out . So , i was sleeping went he called . And told hym im going out with family . He wants me to teman hym , go geylang . Im sorry . I can't . I also did wish hym , Happy Anniversary . Kejam pelik , 3 months with hym . Cepat jugak . Hmmm , he did text me , he thought our anniversary was tomorrow , nope . Tomorrow is me & exboyy, zul 14mth anniversary . And he did tell , tell say , js because of a my ex we became lyke this . I was like , HUH ? So , js forget it . Im happy with my boyyf now . And im staying strong with my love onces .

I did tell Boyyf about Adimin called , ihe say , "Bbual macam tak pelat jer." I was , ntarh ehk ? Biar larh . Tak kuase . Boyyf had MCYS one whole day , so they went bowling and stuff . So , didnt manage tuh text hym . Hys value , left feww Cents . So , he did use hys friend to calleh me . Thank youu !

I better go now , i have to get ready for school .

P.s ; I'm Mishing Muhd Fadhli ! ;D

Lovee,

YayaCintaaaaa (:

Labels: Muhd Fadli Sayangkurh

Friday, September 11, 2009

Dear Earthlings ,

I apologized for not blogging here . As my previous blogg , at onsugar.com . So all updates was there . Since i miss so much using blogger . I'll be using Blogger back . ;D

Let me update with certain things. With photos uploaded during the past few , days / weeks / months .

Life

Im now happy with my life . Enjoying with all those people around me . & Knowing the people surrounding me . Its a Small World i bet . Knowing loads of people with same Connections . Its really a pleasure .

Love Storia

Im Happly attach with Muhammad Fadhli . People may thought Im a " playgirl " . Changing Boyyf . And not faithfull to guys . Since the day i broke off with Adimin . And knowing who he is . And Boboy , what he said , "Brothers" will come first." So i have decided to move on after that .

Since that , i have know this guy . Who i known hym from tagged . And he started of owning one of my photo , till i send hym , asking hym to add me up at MSN . And he did . So we chatted the whole night . Knowing yesterday . But its js a simple conversation . And we plan to go lepak next day . So we meet up . & there we have the first sight love . So we had our love story begins on 2nd September 2009 . We meet up . We talk around . We craps around . We had our love on . It maybe a short while of knowing each other , but im happy with him .

Its been A week plus of knowing hym . And i greatfully its going strong . Im blessed from both families . And im now having a serious realationship . No more having ~~timmers~~ , ~~scandals~~ . Im faithfull to boyyf .

Family

Talking about my family matter , its alot of difficulty . I having my family court case next month , 26th October 2009 . I apologised to mum , that i cant get what she want . Of getting back with "hym" . Its a big NO .

School

About school ? Having N levels . 2 papers done and finished . English and Malay are done . So i wont be cracking my head . Now im just thinking about , Maths . the main important plus EBS , which can get my Course in ITE . Hopefully i can try my best . There's aload os support given . & i appreciate much .

Friends

Im mishing Kia Feichi Familly . Mishing Manchoy . Will be waiting for you . No matter what . I mish you so much .

Aytes , im done with everything .

Im quarelling with Boyyf again . Arghh ! Im being patient right here .

Love,

Yayaaaaa !

Labels: i love you boyyf