Nur Halimatuz Sa'adiah.Yaya For Short.
Sixteen.
A Secondary Graduating Student.
I am who I am .
No one can judge me.
Your Respect are my strength.
You treat me well , I'll treat you better.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Hello My beloved Brother !
How are you abang ? Im fine down here ! Abang , i miss you ! *laughlaugh* Yaya dah terime check abang . Abang , how's your course everything goes fine ? Im so sorry for the late replies . And , this are some of the photo that i took during the Hari Raya Eve . Abang , it gonna be a year less to your arrival ! I just cant wait for you !
Abang , i had hard time here at home . I try my best to understand at home situation but , sometimes i think its so unfair . I have tried my best not to cry , and always stay strong . But abang , i just feel so terrible .
Mama seems to control everything . And i didnt event have time for my friends . And mama keep talking to her , "boyfriend" . Which i really hate alot . The bigger i am now , i realise that both Mama and Papa are the same . With all the 3rd party all over .
Every single day , mama keep talking to that "guy" . And i really hate alot . What i do , is just ignore . Papa will come back late at night , and he will be at room , opening LOUD music . While others are studying . I just feel so alone and sad .
Abang , i did send you , my boyfriend photo . I known him for 4months aready . But mama tak restu , cause he comes from "bad company" . I seriously dont care , as long as he love me for what i am . Eventhough he got tattoo or whatever , he treats me well . But , its hurt though , cause having a boyfriend a not is still the same .
I had hard time with him now abang . If a guy love a girl so much he wont go any club to enjoy himself right ? Now , his dong this to me .. I seriously wanna a break up . I had enough abang . Cause , its really hurting me . While im writing this im crying too . Abang , why must a guy take my love for granted ? I know im still young and can find a better one . But , it hurt so much . I want to have a peaceful realationship . But , having that , it really take time to find . What actually a guy ones ? Advise is needed . I begged . Cause , i wanna get rid of this "matrep" realtionship . I want a proper guy that can give me a living in the future . That can give me happiness in the end and not saddness .
I also like spending time with my friends rather than boyfriend . Seriously abang i js cant wait for your friend to be out next month . Do ask hym to contact me . (: in case you dont have my number , --------- . He single ? *laughlaugh* Hopefully . I feel so saved if there's someone taking care of me outside . I js cant wait for you to be out , and you will take care of me as well ! I love you !
Oh yarh , my boyfriend now NS . He help his brother at Caltex Car wash . One of their friends know you . Terperanjat jugak . *laughlaugh* My boyfriend/friends want to visit you . Is it possible ? Do update me okkaeys ?
Abang , i really miss you alot . Totally i miss you ! i cant wait to visit you again !
Anw, abang hantar surat pat kak zilla ehk ? I will pass it to her a.s.a.p okkaeys ?
Abang , now i finished my n level , i aready start working with mama . Will be spending time working . So , hopefully that i can have a great time with mama .
Abang intreseted in KudaKepang ? Just asking . (: Cause currently my free tyme , i spend time playing kudakepang . (: really i had a great time . I'll be opening a new group . Insyaallah it will be opening next year . Pray hard okkaeys ?
Abang , may one day you return to me and teach me a proper meaning of life . I had enough of hurt and being so unfair with mama . With her "boyfriend" . I really need you . I really want to spend time with you .
I promise , i will takee your step as my example . And i will remember all your adivse . Your one and only brother i have .
I miss you so much ! I love you so much ! I need you so much ! I want you so much !
You gave me strength . You gave me hope . All i need is you !
With much love and kisses ,
Your one & only sister ,
Yayacinta`bintang !
How are you abang ? Im fine down here ! Abang , i miss you ! *laughlaugh* Yaya dah terime check abang . Abang , how's your course everything goes fine ? Im so sorry for the late replies . And , this are some of the photo that i took during the Hari Raya Eve . Abang , it gonna be a year less to your arrival ! I just cant wait for you !
Abang , i had hard time here at home . I try my best to understand at home situation but , sometimes i think its so unfair . I have tried my best not to cry , and always stay strong . But abang , i just feel so terrible .
Mama seems to control everything . And i didnt event have time for my friends . And mama keep talking to her , "boyfriend" . Which i really hate alot . The bigger i am now , i realise that both Mama and Papa are the same . With all the 3rd party all over .
Every single day , mama keep talking to that "guy" . And i really hate alot . What i do , is just ignore . Papa will come back late at night , and he will be at room , opening LOUD music . While others are studying . I just feel so alone and sad .
Abang , i did send you , my boyfriend photo . I known him for 4months aready . But mama tak restu , cause he comes from "bad company" . I seriously dont care , as long as he love me for what i am . Eventhough he got tattoo or whatever , he treats me well . But , its hurt though , cause having a boyfriend a not is still the same .
I had hard time with him now abang . If a guy love a girl so much he wont go any club to enjoy himself right ? Now , his dong this to me .. I seriously wanna a break up . I had enough abang . Cause , its really hurting me . While im writing this im crying too . Abang , why must a guy take my love for granted ? I know im still young and can find a better one . But , it hurt so much . I want to have a peaceful realationship . But , having that , it really take time to find . What actually a guy ones ? Advise is needed . I begged . Cause , i wanna get rid of this "matrep" realtionship . I want a proper guy that can give me a living in the future . That can give me happiness in the end and not saddness .
I also like spending time with my friends rather than boyfriend . Seriously abang i js cant wait for your friend to be out next month . Do ask hym to contact me . (: in case you dont have my number , --------- . He single ? *laughlaugh* Hopefully . I feel so saved if there's someone taking care of me outside . I js cant wait for you to be out , and you will take care of me as well ! I love you !
Oh yarh , my boyfriend now NS . He help his brother at Caltex Car wash . One of their friends know you . Terperanjat jugak . *laughlaugh* My boyfriend/friends want to visit you . Is it possible ? Do update me okkaeys ?
Abang , i really miss you alot . Totally i miss you ! i cant wait to visit you again !
Anw, abang hantar surat pat kak zilla ehk ? I will pass it to her a.s.a.p okkaeys ?
Abang , now i finished my n level , i aready start working with mama . Will be spending time working . So , hopefully that i can have a great time with mama .
Abang intreseted in KudaKepang ? Just asking . (: Cause currently my free tyme , i spend time playing kudakepang . (: really i had a great time . I'll be opening a new group . Insyaallah it will be opening next year . Pray hard okkaeys ?
Abang , may one day you return to me and teach me a proper meaning of life . I had enough of hurt and being so unfair with mama . With her "boyfriend" . I really need you . I really want to spend time with you .
I promise , i will takee your step as my example . And i will remember all your adivse . Your one and only brother i have .
I miss you so much ! I love you so much ! I need you so much ! I want you so much !
You gave me strength . You gave me hope . All i need is you !
With much love and kisses ,
Your one & only sister ,
Yayacinta`bintang !