Dear Diary ,

I been missing this particular guy , Muhamad Zulfiqar Bin Khairul Anwar . Will be waiting for you . 8 days and counting ! Will wait for your return . Kia Feichi oyy !

& i need Sayang to be with me NOW ! I mish hym truckloads . Eventhough i js met hym 2 daeys ago . But still , i js get seperated by from him .

Will be going out with classmate later . Photos will be tak taken an upload at tagged . And Saturday , will be going out with dearest Husband . Js cant wait .

Im so upset with Mama js now . I went food court to eat . I was busy entertaining this crazy guy . So irratating . then Sayang called me . i ran outside foodcourt , and talk . Cause i dont wanna let mama hear . Then , went i come back . Mama talking with hyer boyyf or whoever , then she realise my nails , i was using Red Nailpolish , and she say , " Kakak , Kuku kaw macam pompan Prostitute! " I was talking on the phone with Sayang i told hym to called back later . My tears was going down my checks . Seriously , how can a mum say like that ? And i was so shocked ! Ohmy , she can use that kinds of words . Exscive that im nothing to her . And she say she gave up with her children . I was crying and loads of words , thinking in my mind . She's the one who want us . She's the one who realy wanna take care of us . If she really gave up . I as well , find a new house in town with js one room flat . And stay by myself with all my effort ! Seriously shirt , im doing that . Finding a new home . Without mum around . And survive with my own hands and effort . A understanding mum , wont say such words to her own children . Giving reason , for us to chances was Bullshits ! I js hate being treated this way .

I was crying went i told Sayang . Sayang told me not to cry . And i seriously told him that i feel like running away from home . I tell out everything . And Sayang was asking me not to cry . Thank you Sayang for the comfort . I really appreciate much . I love you Sayang . And your my one and only . You understand me aload . And i seriously hope that we remain this way forever . With much love , from me to you ! And i'll meet you soon Sayang ! See you on Saturday . Pink ? okaeys ?

Im gonna thinking about a new flat . And im gonna survive alone . Went i reached 18 . I'll makesure that , i will have a new life . I prefered to be alone . then , being pampered with someone . Day by day , i realise that both Mum and Dad are the same . I wanna stay away from them . And having a new life for myself . Will be aiming , as soon as possible .

I got to go now . Need to rest for tomorrow . I dont wanna have eye bags any way .

Love,

Yayacintaa <3