Dear Diary ,

People are so mean now a days . I wouldnt say who but , i may not be in that place , i may not be a member anymore . But , the thing that im now surprised , even an invitation was not given to me . I realise who am i to them . But , i suppossed they shoudl inform me or something , Ohmy ! Sad and dissappointed .

Im out with Sayang tomorrow . Enjoying the fun and sharing the romance together . I did met up hys parent last Sunday . Its pleasure Sayang bought me there . Got to talk to Baba alot . I'll see you on 17th . And i'll make sure it will be happening . Cause , there's something in mind . Sayang was happy , but then ? im not . I still have hearts and respect to the one who gave me the power and strength . Did ask permission , still thinking about it . Whatever your decision is i respect it .

Celebrating the Eve , wasnt thatenjoyable enough , but hopedully this 2nd & 3rd will be a great one . Hoping laughter on the 2nd with Classmate and Having romace on 3rd .

Sayang will back to National Service starting tomorrow . So , i'll be sleeping at home while hys at Camp . I'm sorry Sayang , but i still be companying you next week . I been skiping school for lyke a few days . Plus This whole week . Its not im weak to go to school . But , coming school without any Studies going on i as well , sit at home and sleep . And attend school next Monday , just to take exams . And after exams , continueing sleeping .

I had plans after exams . I apologised to Sayang earlier if i dont have tyme for hym . I'll be working Mid of this month or Earlier next month , Will be assisting mum with her work at , Mount Ellizebeth . Js right behind Orchard Paragon . Monday to Friday , working hour . And Saturday , Half day . I'll be at the Receiptionist . And what i'll be doing will be , answering calls and assist mum . Simple but yet , its all about Nursing . Didnt learn much about Science in school . I remembered taking Sciende went i was Secondary 1 & 2 . And after that , i get my hands on , taking Design & Technology . And i have little memory space in my mind . So , i'll be facing problem countered while working . Hopefully mum bared with me .

Excited ? Jyearh ! With some upcoming event . ont the 2th , 3rd , 13th , 17th , its my special day so , hopefully it will came out in a different way . Im hoping the best from Sayang . The most im waithing for in 17th . Overjoyed i think . Im loving that day ! Farrel Park ?

Surprises ? Woah ! I bet people like it . Come down on 17th . Thank to Sayang for the invitation . Im glad at least there;s is someone who know how to invite me . eventougth im nothing to them . But still they treat me as one . I will never let you down Sayang . For you and them , i will do anything to get back everything. As whay malay say , Hidup Mesti Degil . Am i right ?

Proud to have a Boyfriend with Tattoes , drink , smoke , wrong compang ? Nope ! Totally im not proud at all . So what he have that all this but only Rubbish he gave to a ghurl ? Its better having all that , and loving a ghurl with sincerly . And for your information , Sayang treats me better then last tyme . Which is triple much better then last tyme . And hoping Sayang wont let me down . Hopefully . I dont care at all woth what he is now , what i cared is , he love and hys honesty , that he gave .

My experience ? Having Sayang for 3 an a Half months was totaly Complicating . Its worth of waiting . And patients . Either you can do it a not . As , one particular day you will realised that he come to you , begged for you love and asked for the lst chance given . And your heart was open to gave hym the last chances . Sayang show me that he change . But not fully change , im still standing straight looking how long can this happen .

Afraid ? Yupp , im afraid of loosing hym and afraid he might did the same . Who know , one day . Im not looking forward to it . But hopefully it wont happen . Im happy with hym now . And hopefully it wont end js like that .

Sayang , i love you no matter what .

Love,

Yayacinta